I should be enough

Hoping, Wishing, Dreaming...

I could be better than this

Discontent and regret washing over me

Overwhelming my mind with unwelcome sensations

You told me you care

Why are you trying to change me?

Am I not enough?

I just want you to hold me

Take me as I am

My world threatened to crumble

Somebody help me

I'm going mad

Stop humiliating me

The throbbing words...

Echoed through my soul

Reassure me, please...

That I'm more than enough

...

Appearing sarcastic and cool

Feels like my eyes are binded in wool

Within I'm crushed

My mind's in mushed

Could it be any more clear?

I'm anything but the best.

The silence hurts my ears

The light burns my eyes

Your face blurs my mind

I run away from you miles away

But you seem to be everywhere

I close my mind

Blot out the savage regret

But your shadow I seem to find

Lurking... ready to strike yet

Facing the hideous truth

I'm just a prosaic in the world.

Love

Love is a wonderful word

It's like a song meant to charm

Like a lover on his knees

Uttering sweet words to his Ladylove

Love is a mystery

That needs to be felt and cherish

Before unraveling the true meaning of the word

And yet we can never still comprehend

It's a gift worth treasuring

No matter how we say how painful it is

It's a feeling you shouldn't scorn

Because it's a gift, a treasure, a happiness.

Let me be...

It's all my fault, I know.

You don't have to say it to me over and over again.

I'm in no position to argue... since I'm to blame.

I don't want to reason out.

O ain't gonna make a point… and defend myself in your accusing eyes.

So, please shut up.

Stop nagging me.

You know me more...

You're more experienced than me...

But, I'm the one living my life... let me learn by my own mistakes.

No need to tell me over and over on what's happening to my fucking life.

I'm well aware of it.

And I know too well that it's not going well.

I'm grateful for everything.

But, please let me be...

I might blow up with you always breathing down my neck.

I'm frustrated and confused enough....

Please, don't add up to the things I have to think about.

I'm here.

Hey, pretty baby

stop crying your heart out

smile.. laugh...

be weird... be happy...

no one is giving up on you

it's not yet the end...

we're still too far from the destination, my sweet

come on.. hold my hand and make sure you ain't letting go..

it's bumpy ride but I'll bet it'll be fun

there are obstacles in the way...

oh no dear, don't let go..

you'll see.. it will all be worth the risk..

there's no detour, no shortcuts..

'cause if you want to experience a wonderful ride of your lifetime...

learn to take the long road 'cause I'm pretty sure...

there's a treasure lay hidden at the very end of the rainbow.

He's pathetic and I love him.

You throw corny jokes which are very lame

You act mysterious and loves to play games...

You're weird which is ridiculously cute.

You're sarcastic

which turns me dementedly furious

You're cynical

Which irritates the hell out of me.

You're mean

which makes me Hate you.

You make me curious

You make me want you

My heart skips a bit everytime I talk to you

My flesh would turn to jelly everytime you flash those devastating lopsided grins.

Oh please... stop making me feel butterflies in my stomach

I can't be falling for you...

we're two very different people...

You're normal… I'm weird.

You're awesome… I'm a freak.

You're quick... I'm naive.

You're optimistic... I'm pessimistic.

You're independent... I'm overly dependent.

You're deep... I'm shallow.

Don't make me fall… 'cause I know you won't catch me.

For once...

For once, let me hear pure praises...

not praises with ridiculous notions...

For once, love me for who I am and accept the limit of my capacity...

not make me the way you want me to be...

For once, let me cry a river and find solace in your arms...

don't push me away and make me into a robot...

For once, smile at me....

She just wants someone to be there.

Tears streaming down her pale cheeks

drowning in her confusion and shame

she closed her eyes tightly... all swollen and red

she dreamed for oblivion...

wishing the pain away..

holding tightly the small teddy

somehow thinking it could protect her frail body

she called to the man they call "God"

asking Him to vanish the evil in her mind

only realizing He didn't hear her cry

she turned to the people she knew

expecting the warmth of love...

instead... criticism flooded her heart.

she pushed the teddy aside...

stand up and wipe her tears away..

"I don't need anyone… not even a stupid teddy..."

Numbness seeping through her veins…

tears all dried up...

she smiled her famous fake smile..

look herself up in the mirror and said to herself..

"There's no happiness coming my way...

it's a fucked up World, my love... keep that in mind.."

She's in Pain

She's Unbelievable

playing a game of deception

caught in the web she had weaved

she can't accept defeat

blamed all her faults to others

crawling all her way to perfection

no matter how hard she tried

she keeps falling down

buckled knees... she can't stand on her own two feet

Hypocrisy is her expertise

telling you this and that

yet it's all false in her cold, black eyes

Jealousy would succumb her world...

formed evil plans on her crazy, demented mind

but that's just they are.. plans.

Pride made her appear selfish and cold...

and then she asks... "Will you risk everything to look deep within

and see the hurt I've been keeping?"

she has many insecurities and fears

hides them with the sweetest, fakest smile..

hating her life yet she doesn't know why..

had several suicide attempts... she can't count how many times

she has many mistakes yet she doesn't acknowledge her faults..

she walks head high.. and pretend she doesn't have flaws

Dependency makes her weak...

vulnerable to others abusive greed

so, she put up a facade...

a fierceness she's trying to keep...

and then she wonders...

"Will they see through my charade... will they break the walls I've erected?"

Please...

Will you be my Melody?

Fill in the missing Symphonies?

Fulfill my lifelong Fantasies?

Because baby, you're the only reason for all my melody

You're the inspiration to all the lyrics in me

I don't want to hear the music playing

If tomorrow is not for us to be together

So, baby listen to what my heart is singing

'Cause it was all meant for you to hear....

Questions...

Will it ever be...

Forever you and me?

Are what we feel in Harmony?

Does our hearts sing the same Symphony?

Will this be our last kiss?

Are we still gonna share the same Bliss?

Can I still see your smile?

Can I still hear your laugh?

Will I ever still feel your arms around me?

Will your heart still beat for me?

I don't want to close my eyes

For I'm afraid that if I would

I'm gonna lose the one I'm hugging now

That is the reason why

I would like to buy the time

For it to stop at this very moment...

and end my questions and doubts.

Had Enough...

One of these very Ordinary days

We won't collide ways

One of these Many days

I won't be there to see the smile on your face.

You left my world so cold

Now, how could I warm the home I thought I once belong?

You ask for more...

How could I give when you've taken it all?

I'm okay...

I understand...

It's nothing... 'cause it's love...

My sweet, it's easy to lie

Start a charade and smile

I don't want another shallow excuses

You throw away my love

Now my heart is torn to pieces

I don't need fixing

... if it will be you who's gonna put an end to all the hurting...

Regret....

Forget, forget, forget
How could I regret
When it was me who to blame
And ended this excruciating game

In my mind you creep
All night I weep
Drowning in an empty cup
Feels like my mind has blown up

To the memories I cling
Toneless to the song I sing
Ensnared by your passion
Still wishing for your affection

You're my addiction
Tangled in an endless obsession
On my bones your name I engrave

In your love I'm a slave.

When you think that somehow your decision was right... It turns out to be the worst.
Thinking that leaving him was the best, but it only turns to regret. Seeing him with someone really hurts and wishing you were the one who he's kissing and hugging at that moment.