It's all my fault, I know.
You don't have to say it to me over and over again.
I'm in no position to argue... since I'm to blame.
I don't want to reason out.
O ain't gonna make a point… and defend myself in your accusing eyes.
So, please shut up.
Stop nagging me.
You know me more...
You're more experienced than me...
But, I'm the one living my life... let me learn by my own mistakes.
No need to tell me over and over on what's happening to my fucking life.
I'm well aware of it.
And I know too well that it's not going well.
I'm grateful for everything.
But, please let me be...
I might blow up with you always breathing down my neck.
I'm frustrated and confused enough....
Please, don't add up to the things I have to think about.
Hey, pretty baby
stop crying your heart out
smile.. laugh...
be weird... be happy...
no one is giving up on you
it's not yet the end...
we're still too far from the destination, my sweet
come on.. hold my hand and make sure you ain't letting go..
it's bumpy ride but I'll bet it'll be fun
there are obstacles in the way...
oh no dear, don't let go..
you'll see.. it will all be worth the risk..
there's no detour, no shortcuts..
'cause if you want to experience a wonderful ride of your lifetime...
learn to take the long road 'cause I'm pretty sure...
there's a treasure lay hidden at the very end of the rainbow.
You throw corny jokes which are very lame
You act mysterious and loves to play games...
You're weird which is ridiculously cute.
You're sarcastic
which turns me dementedly furious
You're cynical
Which irritates the hell out of me.
You're mean
which makes me Hate you.
You make me curious
You make me want you
My heart skips a bit everytime I talk to you
My flesh would turn to jelly everytime you flash those devastating lopsided grins.
Oh please... stop making me feel butterflies in my stomach
I can't be falling for you...
we're two very different people...
You're normal… I'm weird.
You're awesome… I'm a freak.
You're quick... I'm naive.
You're optimistic... I'm pessimistic.
You're independent... I'm overly dependent.
You're deep... I'm shallow.
Don't make me fall… 'cause I know you won't catch me.
For once, let me hear pure praises...
not praises with ridiculous notions...
For once, love me for who I am and accept the limit of my capacity...
not make me the way you want me to be...
For once, let me cry a river and find solace in your arms...
don't push me away and make me into a robot...
For once, smile at me....
Tears streaming down her pale cheeks
drowning in her confusion and shame
she closed her eyes tightly... all swollen and red
she dreamed for oblivion...
wishing the pain away..
holding tightly the small teddy
somehow thinking it could protect her frail body
she called to the man they call "God"
asking Him to vanish the evil in her mind
only realizing He didn't hear her cry
she turned to the people she knew
expecting the warmth of love...
instead... criticism flooded her heart.
she pushed the teddy aside...
stand up and wipe her tears away..
"I don't need anyone… not even a stupid teddy..."
Numbness seeping through her veins…
tears all dried up...
she smiled her famous fake smile..
look herself up in the mirror and said to herself..
"There's no happiness coming my way...
it's a fucked up World, my love... keep that in mind.."
She's Unbelievable
playing a game of deception
caught in the web she had weaved
she can't accept defeat
blamed all her faults to others
crawling all her way to perfection
no matter how hard she tried
she keeps falling down
buckled knees... she can't stand on her own two feet
Hypocrisy is her expertise
telling you this and that
yet it's all false in her cold, black eyes
Jealousy would succumb her world...
formed evil plans on her crazy, demented mind
but that's just they are.. plans.
Pride made her appear selfish and cold...
and then she asks... "Will you risk everything to look deep within
and see the hurt I've been keeping?"
she has many insecurities and fears
hides them with the sweetest, fakest smile..
hating her life yet she doesn't know why..
had several suicide attempts... she can't count how many times
she has many mistakes yet she doesn't acknowledge her faults..
she walks head high.. and pretend she doesn't have flaws
Dependency makes her weak...
vulnerable to others abusive greed
so, she put up a facade...
a fierceness she's trying to keep...
and then she wonders...
"Will they see through my charade... will they break the walls I've erected?"
